Well, it sure has been a long time since I last wrote something here. I’ve been trying to write but the readjustment period took me a while. I think it also had to do with the fact that I didn’t do as well as I wanted in the Korean placement test *sigh*. I got placed in the second level (이금) which was highly disappointing for me because I had been studying like there was no tomorrow. Likewise, when I saw what we were going to learn, I got doubly disappointed. I knew most of it already and I’ve always been the kind of student who thrives in a challenging setting rather than being comfortable one. I think that was the moment when learning Korean became a chore and a very tedious one at that. I didn’t want to study anymore so I only did the things that were required and even considered dropping out of it. The experience was the complete opposite of last summer, where I had to struggle and had to study extra time in order to catch up with classmates (and I did in less time that I had dared to hope). I believe that was my most rewarding experience.
In short, I’ve been moping around for almost two months. I realized yesterday that I was wasting a golden opportunity. Sincerely speaking, I lost the sight of my ultimate goal and forgot the reason that made me start learning Korean in the first place. I think that sometimes we lose sight of what we wish to accomplish and that’s exactly when we lose our motivation towards it. Also, I realized that I’ve been focusing on the negative aspects (I’m not learning anything, blah blah blah) instead of make the most it by telling myself that it was good that I was reinforcing what I knew and got so much practice that I’m used to using them orally without problems. Likewise, I reminded myself of how beautiful the language is. Somehow, I not only managed to recover my motivation but also gain a new perspective on it. I think it made me even more determined to keep learning it.
Well, I think I needed to get this out of my system so I feel more contented now LOL. I will always try to concentrate on the accomplishments rather than the hindrances. I’m also hoping that I can post soon (which will be either sometime this week or next one) since I finish my midterms on Monday afternoon. I think it will be more about Korean language itself than my experiences so far in Seoul.